contrary to the hover, i aint single, sexy and free..very much attached, fat and busy. however, gettin quite used to typing in html. a very proud member of crescent computer club. haha.with less than 20% attendance; attendance dwindling as the years go by.
Cant believe i blew off 3 dates today to spend time alone at home. i enjoy it tho. I find bliss in loneliness. Gives me time to think. contemplate and force things into perspective. i revere the time i get to spend alone. i need time for myself. yep, i do enjoy socialising, but once in a while, i need my solitude. desperately. In my opinion, the best time to "think" is right before u fall asleep. One fine day, i should publish my thoughts, make it into a book. I'll call it "bedtime thoughts". It may be a far cry from a bestseller tho. haha. Its kinda funny when i look at my trend of thoughts. Last week..i was thinking of wad sets cultured men apart from uncultured men, and if the difference stems from their upbringing or education. Also, on what would i Do if i was the President of the United States..kinda delusional..i know..but it was jus nice..thinking...i came up with 12 things that i would get down to instantaneously. Like yanking my army troops out of the middle east and doing something abt the aparthetid laws in Africa and settling the disputes in Palestine. And i got deeply upset, so terribly distraught at how the world around us functioned and how minuscule my own world seemed in comparision. thoughts on black september and how india withdrew their troops from sri lanka..
well, speaking of india, i went saree shopping last night. It was terrible and i hated it. Well..i jus aint ur saree kinda person. I cant even imagine myself being draped around a six feet material. It is sooo much easier shopping for normal clothes cuz u basically know what colours suit you and well..u could alwaYs try them on..like duh!!!! However, a blouse has to be STITCHED for a saree..the material dwindles at the edge of the saree..so..u jus sorta drap the blouse cloth ard ur arms n twirl the rest of the saree around ur body to check if it suits you. like..WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean..how am i supposed to visualize if i look good when all i see is a lampost wrapped in cloth. Unless, ure damn good in visualing the final product..as a first timer in saree purchasing..ure f***** screwed. Visualizing???damn...my 3d trigo was basically the death of me in school. Weirdly, it started making me envious of fat women. WEIRD RITE??? F***** weird... In the end..i got moody and grouchy and started sulking when my mom came up with an idea of going to Darshaini's silk store. PANIC ATTACK!! heart beat racing to a halt..ME is not goin to Parvin's mother's store looking like im from the land of the GRINCH!!!! Immediate mobilization of daddy..drag mom into a car and shoot home!!!!!
Someone close to me told me to keep my Sept 1/2nd free(jas..help me go find out frm ur FAV)... Duh, its gonna be a surprise. either its for teacher's day or someone's got it all planned out for the day after my birthday? mere coincidence? i don't know. grinz. but im incredibly touched. Its nice when someone plans a surprise for you, even when loads of time is at hand. Nice that someone cares enough for you to go all the way out to ensure you smile. nice that someone thinks of you and wants to make you happy. nice nice. I'm meeting Ibby later..I've no idea..its jus diff to turn someone down when they're so persistent. And i've no idea why. There is something tragically wrong with me. I tend to find everyone that i meet initially..annoying. why? ive no idea. accord to tams..its their vibes. Apparently, if we share the same kinda..vibes..den we tend to find the other person irritating. I mean this guy is nice and good looker and fine and we click and takes effort to fetch me and send me home and gets worried when he thinks im lost..in a NICE (not stalkerish) way and the last time we met..he even said.."worth the wait.you look really nice", right before we went for a party tog..sO..ive no idea why i feel so reclusive. i jus keep brushing off..and this has nothing to do with my boyfriend cuz he is fine with me going out as friends with other guys. I just dont know why. im such a weirdo.
However, its nice when someone messages me a casual message from time to time..asking me how i am and waddup and asks me if i would be coming online that night(haha!!! miss seeing me online??????i know!!!!!!)..gives me a nice fuzzy wuzzy feelin. haha..reminds of the time that thuva and i were jus getting to know each other. nice nice. anyway..do u know that they navy guys are allowed to go home only when the sun sets? for instance, if the sun sets earlier..they get to go home earlier. quite cool in a primitive way aite???
adios.
and so her story is told@ 12:26 AM
